I am freaking the Rosh Hashanah out. I feel so ill prepared observing the upcoming Jewish new year that I made a colorful Rosh Hashanah schedule on my ipad.
Regrets. I should have been going to all the classes offered to help deepen my understanding of this season or have done extensive reading…but no, I didn’t do any of this (hence my anxieties). I want to make it meaningful. Ffffffff have I already failed my first new year as a new Jew?
This time of year tends to be very “self-help happy”. In hope that I can ease my anxieties have listed my questions/fears/commentary/etc.
1. Clothing. Do I have to wear white to RH services? This list is not in any particular order so don’t think that this question is of highest priority. Having said that I HATE wearing white and prefer my red dress. Apples are red.
2. Transliteration. Although I am going to a beginner friendly service…I still freak out wondering if everything will be transliterated. Sometimes I read everything quickly in English and than in the transliterated Hebrew…double the work but important to know what I the heck I am saying.
3. Thoughts. What should I be thinking about? As it is new years perhaps my energy is best used to take extensive inventory of my life. A Facebook friend recently wrote a great blog entry about this. Check it out: http://wolkin.tumblr.com/post/98160298506/getting-ready-for-rosh-hashanah .
Some rabbis say to give yourself a theme to focus on. I found this Bill Cosby quote to reflect upon.
4. Family. This time of year many fellow members of the tribe are spending the holiday with their families. As I don’t have any cemented traditions as yet or Jewish family members I am forced to rely on the community as my family. Thankfully I live in New York City so there are a lot of RH options for the J-loner.
5. Apples & honey. Apparently the Talmud suggests various symbolic foods I should eat during this time. I will skip the sheep head thank you very much.
Mind is now on overload.