Stuck

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I shouldn’t be stuck. I should have everything figured out by now as I am almost 35 years old…right?

This is not a new feeling for me but I wanted this time in Israel to be a “time out” to think and make concrete decisions about what it is I want to do in life career wise and alas I am still stuck albeit slightly more relaxed.

The problem is there are many things I want to do:
Travel
Write
Act
Work with kids
Be my own boss
Social media
Make films
Have deadlines
Make people laugh
Swim
Wake up when I want to
Explore
Contribute something awesome to the world
…and get paid

But what? Why am I not inspired? I have the energy and I think the talent but yet…nothing.

I fear this lack of not knowing my purpose will be confused as having no drive, passion or just being lazy. It’s just the opposite.

I am an expert at trying new things, approaches and taking risks. I feel like Ive lived multiple lives but what are they adding up to? I still am wandering…happier than ever but wandering just the same.

4 thoughts on “Stuck

  1. I feel the same way a lot of the time… and whatever my destiny is I love the experiences I live along the way. Not all of them and there’s a lot of crazy and crud. I have however amassed a large warehouse of skills that some day will be put to good use. Everything from office work to circus performance and all kinds of stuff in between. Many times I’ve felt stuck like you. Maybe paralyzed with indirection or lack of direct interest, but I just kept movies g on knowing that the pieces will fit together… at 35 we both haven’t even begun to see everything life has to offer… we’re just getting started. So buck up kiddo! We’ve got some living to do.

    1. You are right …I am proud of the tremendous amount of random adventures and skills I have acquired along the way. More than most …I just have this feeling like I want to bust out utilizing all of them to take the next step.

  2. Looks like you have some great aspirations. Sometimes the best adventures happen when we least expect them. Keep your eyes open and put yourself in position to meet interesting people and great opportunities will present themselves.

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