I shouldn’t be stuck. I should have everything figured out by now as I am almost 35 years old…right?
This is not a new feeling for me but I wanted this time in Israel to be a “time out” to think and make concrete decisions about what it is I want to do in life career wise and alas I am still stuck albeit slightly more relaxed.
The problem is there are many things I want to do:
Work with kids
Be my own boss
Make people laugh
Wake up when I want to
Contribute something awesome to the world
…and get paid
But what? Why am I not inspired? I have the energy and I think the talent but yet…nothing.
I fear this lack of not knowing my purpose will be confused as having no drive, passion or just being lazy. It’s just the opposite.
I am an expert at trying new things, approaches and taking risks. I feel like Ive lived multiple lives but what are they adding up to? I still am wandering…happier than ever but wandering just the same.